My thoughts on Self and “Anatta”
Hello, this is Mahendra and I want to record my thoughts about the concept of self. It's often debated in philosophical and religious circles. There are people who believe that the self exists only as a concept and there's no real self as such.
And some people even label the concept of self as a hallucination or a delusion, a virtual self. Buddhists refer to the concept of anicca, which means everything is impermanent. And on that basis, they say that a self cannot exist (anatta) as, if there is a self, it will obey the laws of anicca, which means the end result is no self (anatta).
I take a slightly different view on the interpretation of the Buddhist concept. I think what the Lord Buddha said is that there is no unchanging or permanent self. The self or identity of self exists but is subject to change just like everything else in the universe and therefore cannot be an unchanging entity as for example a soul.
I am Mahendra Gonsalkorale as of now, this moment, but I'm not the same Mahendra Gonsalkorale who was born 80 odd years ago and I have probably nothing that I was born with which has persisted from my birth to my current state. I am a mixture of memories, ideas, likes, dislikes, concepts, beliefs, past memories, future projections, and even my physical being is changing all the time. In other words, there is a Mahendra Gonsalkorale but this entity is changing all the time and is evolving from a state or moment in time to another moment and as this process can move slowly or rapidly for the various constituents of Mahendra, I may appear as unchanged depending on the time scale applied. For example, if it was possible to construct a 5 year old Mahendra, there would be hardly any noticeable commonality even if it was possible to have a dialogue with him. But the Mahendra 1 week ago will still be immediately recognisable as Mahendra as he is now. In this context, it is useful to go back to the well known “Ship of Theseus Paradox” on whether a ship which over time has changed all its components can be still called the original ship.
All my cells have turned over so that I would not possess a single cell I was born with in 1944. But to me, the question is whether there is “something” which I might call the “core self”, upon which other things are added like your memories, your beliefs, your explanations, your opinions, and all the memories that you gather of the physical world outside. As a Doctor, I think this “core-self framework” has genetic and possibly other currently unknown elements which contribute to the object referred to as Mahendra. This “something” is in fact a hard to define “core framework”, which is unique to me, which I call Mahendra. The core framework is not a physical entity but is something which makes me unique. In other words, all humans are a “mind-body” complex where the mind component is a subtle framework which gathers all the components attributes, both physical attributes (not physical in the sense of a material object) and non-physical attributes, that makes a person a person, or self or him or her.
And this framework, although it is changing all the time, is still uniquely mine. The Mahendra Gonsalkorale framework does not apply to, say, my brother Daya or Raj. We may have common memories and features but we are different ever changing entities but still entities. My constantly changing identity within this entity is uniquely mine.
We may have different memories. But within that core or within that framework, that outline of what I call Mahendra, there are things which are constantly changing.
So the question is whether my belief in a framework, which I call Mahendra or self, is also untrue. And this is may be so because even a framework has to change all the time. But does it necessarily have to change in the way physical objects change? So my question is- “ is the self or identity of self, something that is there, but impermanent (anicca)?” And therefore, when we say anatta, which means there is no permanent soul (as there is in Hinduism), it means that you as a person or identity is constantly changing. And therefore, there's nothing within you which is unchanging, but this changing dynamically unstable self is still unique to you and separable from others. This separation is obvious physically but may not apply to the physically state alone.
I find it a bit difficult to accept that there is no “core Mahendra” or “framework of Mahendra”, because I still pack things into this changing framework as I change physically. And if you talk to me and you talk to another friend of mine, we come across as quite different people with different ideas, different memories and so on. So going back to the Buddhist concept of anatta, I think what Lord Buddha meant to say is that although we may have an underlying consciousness stream or whatever you want to call it, which I label in my case as “Mahendra’s core framework”, it is not something which is consistent or constant, although it is distinct from the framework of others. For the purpose of living within a community of beings, it is helpful to think that we are not unchanging permanent objects but are selves with“frameworks” interacting with each other. We are given names to make living easier but we have a huge amount of shared and interactive components.
It is changing all the time because every microsecond
I exist, I gather data, memory, information, which changes me. But my question
is whether there is something which I used the term “Framework” which is unique
to each person at birth but is undergoing change all the time since then. My
contention at first appears to go against the “anatta” concept in
Buddhism but on closer examination, there is no contradiction, as the “Framework”
is also changing all the time. Why postulate a Framework at all? To me it is a satisfactory
way of understanding “self” and its impermanence while preserving the
uniqueness of a person.
Added on 02-02-2026.
